The signs are everywhere...

Do you take the time to notice all the signs around you? The synchronicities? The repetitive numbers? The birds and animals that visit? The shape of a heart, a feather, an acorn… what signs do you see often?

Where are the signs coming from? Are the Angels nodding in your direction? Is it a loved one in Spirit making an effort to get your attention and say hello? Is it God, Goddess, Infinite Spirit directing you, The Universe reaching out to touch your heart and soul with a bit of love and guidance? Are they affirmations to questions you’ve asked? Do you ask for signs? Do you expect them and feel let down if you don’t see any?

Do you take the time to notice all the signs around you?

I didn’t always. In fact I somewhat resisted signs and nods from the Universe for quite some time at the beginning of my career. As an evidential medium I wanted facts and information that was verifiable and solid… I wanted my feet rooted solidly so my work could stand strong in it’s evidence. I felt like if I got too ‘woo woo’ then I would lose something of the validity in the work that I do proving that Spirit, that our loved ones in Spirit, never leave us and they are well and with us always. I didn’t want to mix that with signs and Angels and Guides or Guardians… I worked with Spirit, loved ones who have crossed over and they never let me down. I am in control and I am open to only the highest and best influences. They are here to say hello and let you know they are with you… Grass roots Spiritualism. …

Everything changes. Thankfully everything changes. As my years working with Spirit have passed I have had more and more pushes and nods, signs that have gotten grander and clearer if I dare look away or ignore the guidance… the push towards or away from something, or even sometimes someone… the inner knowing and the obvious outer signs will all fit together if you allow yourself to be aware… to notice and trust. That’s how it has evolved for me.

I still don’t usually ask. I find I’d rather trust that when needed the Universe, my loved ones, my guides and guardians, will reach out and get my attention as long as I am trying to be aware, to notice. I still feel like if I ask I am testing them or not trusting in the flow. I feel like if I ask for a sign I put myself in the way of seeing the true signs that are everywhere. What I mean by that is that if I ask for a feather I might not notice the rainbow or the bird. I also try to notice everything. I mean everything from duplicate numbers and birds and all animals to songs that come on the radio and everything in between. I recognize the messages everywhere, the signs are everywhere, so I don’t find myself needing to ask for any confirmation that Spirit is with me. I have faith in that… an unshakable faith in that created from the work I do.

I would never ask for signs as answers to questions either… not sure why… but somehow it feels like lacking in trust in the flow to ask for a feather if I’m going to get that job or show me “XYZ” if the answer is yes…that kind of thing still isn’t my way of wanting to communicate with the Universe that surrounds me. To me it’s almost like if I ask it implies that I don’t trust or that I’m not open to and receiving what is for my highest and best…

I say for me because this is my journey. My journey to understanding my connection to all that is. My journey with Spirit. I asked what it means for you because your journey is yours, your experience, your connection and communication with Spirit… it’s yours to understand and experience and build to suit your needs and personality and beliefs….None of of do it all the same and none of us do it more right or wrong than another. That is my truth.

My truth is that as long as I allow myself to notice and be open without expectation or demand, then the signs are everywhere and for this I am grateful <3

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Trust..

Nature will show you signs all day every day if you allow yourself to notice…

Good Morning Sunshine

Life changes so much. It’s seemed to be on overdrive for me since May or June of last year. I try to remember that change is good. A friend used to always throw change on the floor in my dining room and declare “there’s always room for change”. In the last decade I’ve really found myself facing lots of life defining changes. Changes occurring intentionally as I set about shifting my days, life and routines with great purpose and changes I’ve had no control over. Changes I maybe didn’t want but they rippled from changes I did want for myself. Since last May or June the changes internally have been on overdrive…in so many ways, not the least of which is the physical changes as I approach 50 years old.

When I was young change scared me. I’ve always been big with routines and schedules… even still there are so many ways I resist change in my life, things like not wanting to shift my ‘planned’ day around for the unexpected… changing something I’ve considered set in motion will still trigger anxiety in me. But change like moving furniture around and rearranging our spaces has always been something I love to do and have no resistance to.

There has been no shortage of experience with change in my life…from being adopted and immediately facing that change. (Birth is already a monumental change in a beings life but then not being with the same energy, person, voices etc… imagine the adjustment and uncertainty even for an infant.) thru all the usual changes people live thru…relationships, divorce, growth, moving locations and jobs…not to mention the physical way the body changes as we grow…change is inevitable and it is the only thing certain in this life… it’s going to change.

This past year the changes have surprised me. I’ve made decisions for myself and stood up for myself in ways that changed my life. I’ve seen myself and my goals change before my very eyes as I became truly aware of me… myself… who I am, what I want for my life. Everything changed when I decided to see myself completely with no expectations. Some changes are wonderful and some changes aren’t but all is well. My work with the Law of Attraction has changed so much of my thinking.

I like so much of the changes and still many feel like losses. A small one of those losses is my mornings at the sunrise. I used to live less than 5 minutes from the beach… I would wake up in the morning and see the colors of the sky and jump in my car and go to the sunrise every morning. The bigger reason was that I was trying to not be home in the morning when my then husband would get up (seperate rooms) and leave for work… we only irritated each other and so it made both our days much more pleasant if we didn’t see each other… boy has that changed too but that’s another story for another day.

For over 6 years I went to the sunrise almost every day. I have thousands and thousands of sunrise pictures from the very same spot each day (see how I resist change)… a spot my Gram and Gramp used to take me. This was my most sacred moments of the day. The energy of the sun, or clouds against the sea…the birds and the sounds of nature surrounding me… These were my most favorite moments of the day. I loved it and thought it’d never stop yet I have been to the sunrise barely a dozen times in the last year or 2. Things change. Even though I loved every sunrise and felt so much joy in that routine and never wanted it to stop it still faded from my life as it changed…as I changed.

I moved so that it’s now a 15 minute drive to that beach… I got a new husband who sleeps in the same bed with me and whose arms I don’t want to pull myself from in the mornings. Or if he’s gone to work already I am so in love with our home and my space now that I don’t want to go anywhere. I have sacred space all around me and enjoy the sun rising in my own backyard. Things change and I’m okay with it. Even the changes that meant I ‘lost’ something or someone only created opportunity for me to appreciate different circumstances… see see more and love more.

Without change growth cannot occur. Without change everything stays the same. Change is the catalyst to making all your dreams become a reality so why resist? Begin to allow the changes to flow thru and around you with ease, no matter how small and when the big changes sweep you away hold on to the knowledge that with change all your dreams can become manifested.

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Good Morning Sunshine…

I am grateful your light is with me wherever I go…

Thank you Spirit for never letting me down.

This was written Saturday January 12 but I forgot to publish it LOL

My insides are still buzzing from all the energy last night.

I have been serving Spirit for more than 10 years and the energy still amazes me. I am still blown away by the details and information provided and I am so grateful for the ability to share so much proof that life continues and our loved ones never leave us.

It does make my brain fuzzy and my insides buzzy LOL I have to get really good at grounding and getting back into my body when I’m done… and often times, like today., I wake up and still feel like I’m buzzing…

I had a student practice with me last night and she was fantastic. I really love watching as my students step into their own practice and share the connection they have with others… more healing, more light for the world <3

I feel like I’ve been able to bring into my work some of the lessons I learned in the Tony Stockwell workshop last month and I can feel the strength in those practices. I am so glad I took that class. … I miss being the student. My plan for this year is to keep finding more classes for myself … to continue adding to my toolbox.

Now I’ve got another workshop to partake in as Ginger is coming to work on One Brain and that sounds great to me… I really think my body will respond well to overload correction among other One Brain tools… it’s a good day for this kind of refresher…

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If you have built your castles in the air, your work is not lost. That is where they should be. Now put the foundation under them.

Henry David Thoreau

just keep swimming...

I just have to keep on keeping on… feeling overwhelmed with all that is on my plate and constantly reminding myself that all I can do is just keep on keeping on… moving forward and facing the light…

I am so proud of all I have done here on this website and yet when I adventure to other peers websites I fall into comparison mode… this isn’t the most professional site… but it is mine… it’s all I can do… I can’t afford to pay someone to create it for me at this point and all I can do is the best I can do… it’s all baby steps …my learning how to use and create this site… that doesn’t even touch the difficulty I have in promoting myself….after all these years I still have such a hard time putting myself out there and touting my gifts and skills as valuable… why am I so hard on myself?

today’s affirmation from Louise Hay cards was I release all feelings of negativity and guilt… I have to remember I am good enough….it is good enough…my website… it’s about as real as it gets to representing me because it’s all me doing it… my photos, my words, my classes and events… I have something good to share with others and I need to stop feeling and thinking I’m not good enough…

I know I am not the only one with this internal struggle… I am not alone… I am not unworthy and I am committed shining my light as bright as I can … some days are brighter than others and that’s ok.

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Trying my best to face the light…

to feel the light and to be the light…

2019... Bam just like that it's 2019

I can’t even believe how fast the time goes by…. how much has changed in the last several months… it’s head spinning shit LOL

I have decided not to pursue being ordained within the Spiritualist Church. I have so many interests and belief systems that I don’t want to be boxed into one. As a member of the community and certified worker I can have more freedom with my work and beliefs but as the Pastor I’d be limited to representing myself aligned completely with the church beliefs. It just felt right for me to back off. I spend the summer torn up about it and trying to get Jason’s attention to explain to him where I was at… when I finally got it out my heart felt such relief. The words started flowing from me again and I felt more like myself and more creative than I have felt in years.

It really made me focus on the way life can change. How we can want one thing for ourselves… really want it and work towards completing that goal and then one day it can change… and that’s ok.

it’s ok to change my mind and want something different for myself.

it’s ok to change your mind and want something different for yourself.

I’ve spent the summer studying with Kyle Gray and being part of his Angel Tribe and also his Certified Angel Guide Course… and now I am certified in his Angel Card Mastery Program and also as a Certified Angel Guide… I’ve found these studies to be really fascinating …. I never opened the door to Angels before and I have to say what a blast… The reality of the help and support we have from those on the other side is astounding. I am beyond excited to be working with the Angels and be able to start offering these sessions to clients as I expand myself, my skills and services….

it’s been a whirlwind of a summer and fall and now we’re in 2019 and it’s not stopping…I’m a mixed up ball of excited and hesitant, motivated and paralyzed, happy and sad as I face the reality of life and death within my own family… My ex husband, my daughters father, is dying from pancreatic cancer and my time is consumed with making sure he is supported on his journey thru this disease. Helping him do what he believes is best for himself as we face the inevitable end of his days in physical form.

The lessons continue. The journey of discovering who I am and why I am here continues to evolve as my path leads places I’d have never imagined or dreamt of.

My life is beyond good. I am beyond blessed. I am grateful.

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you just never know how life is going to change…

savor every moment…

baby steps back into it...

I'd like to think i'm making my way back into the flow of work with little baby steps ... that seems weird considering how busy i've felt...it think after the stillness of doing nothing everything seems a whirlwind... truly i've kept it slow and steady... i've missed out on getting so much done... so many things on my list since closing the studio and opening the loft doors ...things that remain on my list... untouched... others have come go finished and crossed off while so many tedious To Do's remain and even get added to...  there ARE days when i feel like jumping and skipping way ahead...doing and doing and doing to try and catch up and get to where i thought i'd be now...

the hard part is embracing the knowing that if i do that i'll miss so much of what i really need to absorb on this path... if i skip hurriedly down the path to get it all down i'll miss the importance of my forced stillness in the first place...

everything will fall into divine order and timing ... this i trust... i'll continue to take baby steps and look for the guidance that leads me to the next best path to crossing off items on my list... 

one of those items is to get blogging... to speak up and be seen... to be heard.

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Thank you Spirit ...

I trust... I am watching and I will follow your guidance as I recognize it and pray you will help gently when I don't.  

what a winter...

what a winter... oh my goodness ...

it's funny how the universe works...

I fell and broke my ankle the week before christmas and has to then spend all of january and february sitting on my couch healing...

I think it was really a needed break... in the span of 3 short years so much of my life has changed and shifted and I believe my body needed some down time to settle into it all... i forgot how hard it is to do nothing... i had to force myself to listen to books and nap... I couldn't drive because it's my right foot and I couldn't step on the brake pedal... so down time is what i got...

time to do nothing... at first i thought i'd be able to maybe work on this site... or learn some things about technology that my brain needs to be updated on... but brains on pain and pain killers don't function well and i had to just do nothing...

omg... can you do nothing?   it's not easy...

i found that i am ever so grateful to have this life... my new husband took excellent care of me and had no expectations that i could do more than i could do... my home stayed warm enough and clean enough and i got to binge on This is Us episodes till the tissues ran out <3  

i'm grateful to be back on my feet and back to work daily <3
i'm learning to be grateful for the down time...

my whole self needed it ...so i could be my whole self <3

 

 

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Hello Spring

we've been waiting...

always a work in progress...

I'm still trying to find time to work on the details of this page... and unpack boxes...and design the new loft space... and schedule new events and work on personal family stuff like holiday dinners and gift shopping... and and... there's always an and...

I'm reminded of Abraham ... you can't get it wrong and you never get it done... man oh man is that the truth... you never get it done... it's the deliciousness of the wanting... the joy of the doing... that's the whole point... it's the process... the progress... it's loving the doing and the getting done and recognizing the wonderful truth and beauty and the GIFT in the knowledge that I am indeed...life is indeed... thankfully so...

always a work in progress...

In the beginning...

I didn’t know I was a medium or had any special connection to spirit until I sat in a circle as an adult with the hopes of receiving a message from my Grammy.

I was the girl who was always called too sensitive.  Who cried at everything.  Who felt separate from everyone and everything… but I never had those moments of knowing spirit was around me that other mediums talk about.  I could see Jesus in the wood grain of my door and I liked that… which in itself was odd because we weren’t exactly a religious family.  We did the Sunday school thing once in a while but I wouldn’t call either of my parents religious.  Mom would try and get a group to go to midnight candle services on Christmas eve and perhaps we’d go on easter with our dresses and hats… but Jesus wasn’t part of the family in a way that would make me happy to have him on my door… I just was.

I don’t recall having this connection to spirit as a child.  I do remember after my Grammy died … I was 4…and my mom was crying for her and I do remember thinking and saying don’t cry… she’s right here… I remember wondering why was my mom crying so hard when Grammy was right here… it’s a small memory but knowing what I know now I’d say it was my first knowing of spirit and the continuity of life.